“Je Maintiendra”

"Je Maintiendra"

“Je Maintiendra” is French for “I WILL MAINTAIN”

This is another of my “taglines” on my email.  I just like it. It says that no matter how I feel, or what I am going through, I WILL maintain!  It is a reminder for me to just hang in there, and be tough, keep my wits and dignity about me.

These days it’s not so hard. I adopted this little affirmation, long ago, when my oldest child and I were apart (my ex moved her around Nevada and California for seven years to accomplish this).  She will be 22 in a few days now.  I wanted to fall apart, because there was nothing I could do.  Of course I went through a mourning period.  Of course, I was sad, of course, I tried to reach her, I sought her…. I quit counting address after a dozen, I think… It was awhile back.  But, in the long run, the best way to take care of her, and my other kid at the time, was to take care of me.  The best way to prepare for her return (yes, mothers, they do come home) was to take care of me….  someone once told me to get ready for her return, get prepared… and I did.  I pulled myself together, and went to college, eventually I lit a candle and said good-bye.  Eventually, she came back.  Today, she says that I am her hero. And she is one of mine.  One thing we have both managed to do is to Maintain.

Pamela Ann Miller, born December 21, 1983.  I LOVE YOU!!!

P.S. The pictue included with this blog is of me and my ex.  I don’t care about him so much.  But, for those of you who did not know me when I was young… notice, I’ve not always been FAT! (EGADS!!).  I was about 19 or 20 years old there.  The picture was taken somewhere between 1982/83.  It was taken at my dad’s home, at that time outside of Woodburn, Oregon.  About a three hours drive north of where I live now.

Hugs, Peg

About PeggyAnn

Professional PC Consultant, Researcher, & avid people watcher, Peggy Ann Rowe started into her genealogical quest at age 15 after watching the mini-series, "Roots" with her parents. This new obsession has fueled her love of history, & study of cultures & societies in every epoch. Today she is 57 years old with four kids who are all grown up (& all have flown the coop). In between her 'gigs' with clients she volunteered at many different non-profits. Former President, Secretary, and Director at Large on the board of the Douglas County Historical Society for 10+ years, and former Secretary at the Cloverdale Historical Society (Sonoma County) for nearly 10 years. This website is an attempt to share the knowledge she has gained about her family ties with others who may be interested in the same things. She does not guarantee 100% accuracy and does hope that you will send corrections. To learn more about her, click the "about" button in the page menu. Thanks! Another goal of this website is to disseminate a message (i.e. education) about domestic violence, child abuse, and all forms of sexual abuse to society at large. The message comes from real experience from the whole spectrum of the violence from sexual abuse by a perpetrator to sexual abuse perpetrated by a husband, to the abuse of children within the family. Peggy has seen it, lived it, and been hurt by it. There will on occasion be details that might be hard for some people to read, and a warning is usually posted at the beginning of the essay so that those who want to turn and not read may do so. The only way to teach and to let others learn what to avoid is to SHARE what happened with every detail necessary to make the point. Thank you.
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