- Wipe away the tears.
- Clear your conscience of the blame.
- There are no rights or wrongs,
- No time for bitterness or fear.
- I am not doing this because of you.
- I do this for ME!!
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- I am doing it because I am tired of faking smiles.
- Pretending I am in love when I am not.
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- I am doing it because I am tired,
- of what protocol says I must.
- A “good” girl or “bad” girl, I AM NOT!!
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- I am doing it because I am tired of being second.
- Because I am tired of the cycle of lies and secrets,
- they happen over and over again.
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- I am doing it because if I stay I will be stunted,
- and I don’t want it that way.
- I should have never had to beg to be understood.
- There is no warmth in my soul for you anymore.
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- Because I AM still young…
- What I really want to do is fly.
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- Because the best way to care for my children,
- is to care for ME!
- For they learn by example,
- Being miserable is not what I want them to see.
- And because I am tired of the violence,
- I just want to live in peace.
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- Because I want to have the opportunity to be
- loved and held,
- just because I am me!
- Not because I am another trophy.
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- Because it gives me the strength I need to let myself cry,
- When you ask why, I can say… “It is none of your business, let me feel my pain with dignity.”
- I am doing it so that I can have boundaries.
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- Because it’s not okay, and it hasn’t been for the whole time.
- I need it for me.
- For if I don’t give myself credit,
- and find myself worthwhile,
- If I don’t stand up now, I will have failed.
- Failed myself before all others, and
- I can not do that to me.
- Failed my children who are god given gifts…
- They deserve respect.
- Failed the truth that I hold on to so dearly.
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- Because I am alive and lovable.
- Because I can’t trust an abuser with the keys anymore.
- Because the love I seek is encouraging and compassionate.
- It knows empathy, and enjoys spirit.
- I want a love that allows me to be me.
- That allows the safety to let me experience life’s joys
- BEFORE I feel the need to run away.
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- Because I should have been allowed some privacy,
- because it’s the last harmful cycle in my life.
- I am the one who can break it.
- I’ve told my last secret….
- it’s time to let myself just BE.
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- Because when it’s come down to holding the proverbial gun to another’s head…
- then it is time to go.
- That, my sweet, is no way to live.
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- Because I have found an untapped depth in myself,
- I want to touch and explore.
- Ignorance is not bliss…
- and to force it upon myself…
- will narrow the scope of MY
- human experience.
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- I take the responsibility…
- I accept the consequences…
- I know it will not be done without pain.
- but, this I must do…. for me….
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