My kind of poetry does not rhyme too much. It mostly tells a story, and for me, ultimately it’s therapy. My guess is that I am at the beginning of a long spree of poetry therapy.
I’m just putting this one out there… I suppose Its a form of communication as well. You don’t have to read it. It’s ok to just scroll on. It’s been years since I’ve wrote any poetry. I will get back into the writing mode at some point. In other words this one is probably no good–but they will get better. I’ve had poems published, and one turned into a song sung (Hilary added the music) in Geyserville Disciples of Christ Church, where Hilary Marckx, leads the whole church in song. I miss them so much right now, and I wish we had stayed right there.
This was part of our vows,
we talked about it long before we promised.
We would be there for the other,
In sickness and in health.
You need help with your buttons now.
I tease you about getting a bib.
I know you need that walker.
I knew that strong man
with a very soft, and gentle touch.
Someone who could whisper,
I love you – it was something I could trust.
A man of ethics, a man of character–
There will never be a replacement.
No one can fill those shoes.
Honesty and integrity-
You are one in a list of very few-
where I could place my trust.
I’ve been so glib.
What did it mean?
When people said, “I love you so much it hurts…”
Today I know…
It hurts so much to know that the reality is,
I am losing you.
God knows, I could cry, and cry and cry.
When you forget who you are,
I will do my best to comfort you.
I will remember the warmth, and the fun-
& the rough and hard times.
I miss you already.
I will fight for you-
I will make sure you are warm.
I can not express how much-
I am so madly in love with you.
Even after 20 years, it grows everyday.
I don’t want to go through this.
I don’t want you to go away.
But, no matter what, I will fight for you.
I’ll always work for your best.
You saved my life.
Showed me that those big hands were so capable of gentlness.
Held my hand, stood beside me.
Please don’t leave me.
How do I let go?
I love you so much.
Sleep tightly, my love.
Tuck you in a little more.
I will create safety,
My place is here with you.
Why, can’t we just meld.
I want to go with you.
Through tears, I will give you away.
My best friend, my love forever.
I feel the tug in each passing day.
Each time I see a new milestone
of these diseases that haunt you.
I hurt so much for you,
I feel sorry for me.
That is how it came to be,
that I know what it means,
I love you so much it hurts.
God give me the strength that I will need.
Send me an overload of compassion and empathy.
Remind me to stay gentle, and to say, “I love you”
Every single day.
Remind me to enjoy the smiles.
The cuddles, the times he remembers,
Help him to realize that I am with him,
I will be there every single day.
12 April 2024 Copyright Peggy A. Rowe-Snyder dedicated to my love.
