First let me say the surprise is mine. So is the education.
I thought Jr. College was very much like an adult high school.
I did specialize in something.
I got my A.S. and I got a certificate in computer systems.
At the time it kind of was the same as being A+ certified.
No small thing in the computer world.
It made you quite employable by many.
So, I have entered my education years at a University.
In fact, I’m nearly done.
I’ve almost got a B.A. in History.
When this comes to fruition, it will be a dream come true.
I am specializing in something: History.
Yet, there is so much to history that I specialize in nothing.
It dawned on me today.
We grow up.
We are very young.
We think we are smart.
We go through our phases where we have a tendency to think we
KNOW IT ALL
Everything, that is, and we must educate the world.
Yet, as we age, we come to know,
the reality is after thousands of dollars,
hours of study, hundreds of tears,
yawns, and one upset son….
I still know relatively nothing.
But at least, I grew out of it.
The disease of KNOW IT ALL
There is something to be learned here by those with out any formal education.
By formal I mean college, university, and upwards.
High school does not prepare you for what it out there,
even if you think it does.
Little in childhood prepares you for the realities of life.
There those of us who go through an arrogant phase.
We look down on those around us
That we perceive,
that you are not as smart as we are.
It’s one thing to be ‘educated’ and arrogant,
you probably are quite aware that you know nothing.
(which means BTW, you really are not arrogant)
But, you also know stuff other people don’t know and you really do want to help.
Either way, in this universe you are not even the mote in someones eye.
It is, however, truly another reality altogether
to be stared down by someone with a high school education.
Their grades showing they barely squeaked by.
Its all pure intimidation.
I used to be intimidated by those types.
I know one pretty well.
I grew up with her.
With her big arrogance came,
a super sized ego attached to all-know-it-ness,
and a temper that could just blow the roof off the house.
The arrogance I could live with.
It was the lies, manipulation, and temper that got to me.
She was a cut throat in some ways.
At least verbally, as any one person could be.
She truly scared me.
These thoughts just came to me.
My education is a gift that I have given myself.
Does that make me better than anyone else?
Shall I look down at others whose choice it was
to not continue on with their education.
I’ve learned that lesson.
I harbor no arrogance, nor the anger that boils beneath it.
I’m happy to share what I know,
but only if you want to know it too.
I do not lie.
I have never purposely manipulated anyone.
My temper is not so explosive that anyone in this world is truly scared of me.
I could not have learned that at any university
Except the University of Life.
I’m sure there I have a PhD
Dr. Survivor in the Universe, EX-traordinaire.
The all knowing Philosophy of Nothingness.
Pie-Cap-Alpha (not you)
Hey, what can I say.
It’s OK to be proud of me.
14 May 2022, back to the capstone project. 🙂