The Grief of a Mother, and the People.

Not that I don’t understand where they are coming from. These people are angry, and I am too. I read something this morning that “white mamma’s” need to share the burden of grieve with the “black mamma’s”. I absolutely can not imagine loosing a child at any age and no matter the circumstances. Becoming a mother has taught me so much about unconditional love. Any mother who loves their kids would fight for their kids. I’ve done it over and over and over again. George Floyd was calling for his mother, and that is absolutely HEARTBREAKING. When Wesley basically over dosed me on that “honey butter” crap, at one point, it was so bad, and I was so scared that I was calling for my mother. I have 100% empathy for Mr. Floyd. I also have 100% empathy for his mother if she had to witness it, or hear it. I can’t imagine the heart break. I’ve seen that some people are already trying to villainize Mr. Floyd. That is sickening. Even if he was a small time petty thief, he did not deserve to die for that. And honestly, those three other officers who stood by and watched this, and then did not attempt a revive the man need to be charged with whatever applies: neglect of human life. or something. They could have brought him back. This makes a whole group of people feel as if they are literally fighting for their very lives. Such blatant disrespect for life. Sickening. As a mother though, yes, I do share in the grief.


Just saying…

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Is A Move in the Works?

We are considering moving our residence — out of the immediate area. I keep finding properties in other areas of Oregon where the houses cost less. We can upscale our standard of living and spend less money. This place could actually be worth something as people run from the cities. It is more feasible now than ever in my life–the moving away from cities that is. People are being forced to work from home. Some are realizing it’s not so bad after all.

Back in the 1990’s I told an employment counselor that was one of my dreams. I wanted to live in a rural area and work from home. This was around 1996 or 1997 (or so). The woman literally told me to get my head out of the clouds!! And now a bit over 20 years later, we are saving our most important “data” to the “cloud”. All of us have our heads in the clouds now.

I have found a 3 bedroom, with a 2 car garage in an area that is very affordable for us. Plus it has a little side building that is a studio apartment. We could rent that out and make it all the more affordable for us. This place has a basement too!! Can you imagine the storage area?! And room/protected space for his beloved Corvair to boot! A dream come true…. an office and sewing room!

We are waiting on word from the Oregon Department of Veterans Affairs right now. A state level VA loan, hopefully will soon be in the works. And then again, it could all fall through too! LOL

We’d still be on bus lines, if kids actually want to visit. We only have a couple of those. LOL. A teaching hospital in the area affiliated with OSU, specialty cardiology is there. Medford isn’t that far away, and neither is Redding. Even if they were not there, we are both fully aware that we entering the final phases of our life. We’ve both lived way past what we thought was our expected lifetime. Every day is a blessing these days.

May as well chase dreams as we can. We would not be closer to the Bay Area or the ocean, but we’d be closer to Mammaw! 🙂 That part would be cool, as she’s made it clear she wants us around for holidays.

Ok, back to school work. One more essay due in 3 days! This one about the importance of Ellis Island in American History!!

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This is Snuggly, one of my very special hens.  (Copyright 2020, Peggy A Rowe-Snyder)

So, our “President” has used the war powers act to order meat packers back to work.

I wonder, has anyone given any thought to the fact that farmers are flat out killing their animals since they are currently a loosing proposition. Rather stupid, I’d rather see that stuff going to food banks.

But, if there is no source of meat, just what are these meat packers supposed to pack?

My deduction: Its probably pretty obvious to most, but this decision like all the rest is politically driven. Trump is obviously getting desperate to make the economy LOOK normal. The bottom line is to be able to tout the fact that he’s seen the country through a Pandemic and saved the economy and therefore deserves another four years in the White House.

Whatever you do, don’t buy it. His job is no where near complete yet. By the time election time comes we’ll probably be smack dab in the middle of the 2nd wave of this pandemic. That is if the experts don’t have some sort of medication that lessens the outright damage this virus exacts from the human body.

The man (The Dumb Trump) has not made a move that hasn’t been politically motivated. There is no way anything is going to change now. Now, especially it is time to keep this in mind. Our big job is to vote the man out of office and pray he leaves peacefully, and that his followers are not the extremists they appear to be. Quite a few from the area where I live are promising Civil War if he’s not reelected. (Really??!!).

We can do better. Now is the time to Make America Great Again—MAGA his ass right out of office!!


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Darkness At Noon by Arthur Koestler

HST341 – History of Russia

I would have never read this book on my own.  I am perfectly female in this way.  I do not want to read about bullets, blood or dying.   I spent at least 2/3rds of the book asking myself what the point was!  It all fell into place as I read the two chapters from week 4 of class.

A good deal of the information from class is all new news to me.  I knew of Lenin and Stalin.  I knew it was bad. I’d heard it was violent and bleak.  But one cannot picture it until they have learned about it in some detail.  This book gives excellent detail to surroundings, and detail into the possible thoughts of the characters, especially the main character, Mr. Rubashov.

              Darkness at Noon is a story about Stalin, and his party of supporting Bolsheviks.  It was about the doing away of any person who so much as breathed a breath of air contrary to the what the party ordered or believed in.  Rubashov was the last tile in a line of dominos.  When he fell, the fight was over, those who symbolized something that went against the party line.  “…a shrug of eternity” — a very small cog in the big wheel of life, what may have mattered to Rubashov no longer mattered at all.  It symbolized the end of an era. The end of a particular people doing a particular job in a particular way.  In doing all this, the story also shows us that Rubashov despite it all, was still a party man, else he probably would not have given himself up by capitulating to his jailers.
          In the very beginning of the book even before the table of contents, the author gives us a HUGE clue as to the nature of the story itself.  The story is fictious, but the main character is a synthesis of people who really existed.   They all lived through the Moscow Trials and the author knew more than one of them personally.  That little paragraph is very telling and really, is what the reader needs to constantly remind him or herself of while reading it. 

The Moscow Trials are in general seen as part of the Great Purge that was ordered by Stalin himself. There were three trials. All the people tried were Bolshevik party leaders who were by then older, most had been very, very loyal.   Stalin was looking to purge the system of anyone who had an opinion that was against him, and who was perceived as a threat in terms of treason toward Stalin.   The perceived threat need not to be real.

One man who was part of the old Bolshevik party and even more important he was part of the  “Central Committee of the Communist Party”- he was there to help build it up, he was a decision maker, was active and loyal.  Mr. Kamenev was part of the Trotsky-Zinoviev Center (the Trial of Sixteen), which was the show trial he ended up being found guilty of.  He and others from those trials were “interrogated” (tortured is probably a more accurate term).Though they claimed to be loyal to the Communist Party in the end they were weakened (through torture) until they were willing to “confess” their crimes.  Originally, the trials were private, but Stalin turned around and used them for propaganda purposes.  But, part of Mr. Kamenev background was that he was a father, and he had been shown evidence that his son was being investigated by the authorities.  This was part of the pressure that the older Bolsheviks were feeling when they were offered a deal:   To basically give up, confess, and for that confession the men who were being interrogated would have saved their families including Kamenev’s son who was in line to be executed from anymore of the cruelties being handed out at the moment.  Obviously, this was the character of Father and Son with the last name of Keiffer in the book.  So, we must also keep in mind while reading that not only is the main character a synthesis of many real people but other characters in the book are also representative of real people at the time of the Great Purge.    Mr. Kamenev was killed in 1936 (though Stalin started moving against him in 1925). And like Mr. Keiffer in the book, probably did give his life in exchange for a peaceful life for his family.

No. 1 must be Stalin.  The name is fitting considering the adulation he was receiving in the form of poems, and whatnot, especially towards the end of his life. (Rasanovsky, 509) The author of our textbook makes it clear that there was a “Cult of Personality” involved with Stalin and his image.  This would explain his photograph in what seem like every main room of homes and offices.

According to Merriam-Webster Dictionary a “cult of personality” is “a situation in which a public figure (such as a political leader) is deliberately presented to the people of a country as a great person who should be admired and loved.”  One need only look at the documentary videos.  The images say it all.  Armies marching carrying posters of Stalin as if he were someone who is above all—possibly even a God. 

Although, the author of the book says that the main character is a synthesis of more than one person, one reads about the history of Niolai Bukharin and wonders if there is really any other person mixed into that personality.  Mr. Bukharin was part of the Bolshevik party nearly from the get-go, he worked under Lenin, and participated with the Party work.  He was a traveled man, in that he ended up in exiled a few times, at least once with Lenin.  He was sent abroad also by Stalin to negotiate the purchase of the Lenin and Marx Archive from Germany as well.   His second wife’s name was Anna Larina.  A photo of her shows her as particularly striking.  It has come to mind that Arlova represents this beautiful woman.    A piece of her lives in Rubashov, she tapped messages on the walls of her prison wall to others around her. 

It is easy to see how Bukharin could have been Rubashov.  During his trial, which was the “The Trial of the Twenty-One”, it became completely clear over time to the Russian people that the charges against him were absurd.  What made them seem extremely absurd was the man’s absolute history of support for the party and what it did and represented.  He supported NEP, he supported the stage of Industrialization that took place, he could live with the “liquidation” of people as a means to an end and voiced it.  Yet, he was also the one man who ended up labeling Stalin as a “Genghis Khan” and ended up questioning the whole movement, just like our main character, Rubashov.   He MUST be the figure that the author used to base Rubashov one last gift of loyalty to the old party, his life.  He ended his statement at his trial like this, “the monstrousness of my crime is immeasurable especially in the new stage of struggle of the U.S.S.R. May this trial be the last severe lesson, and may the great might of the U.S.S.R. become clear to all”  One can only imagine all the mental gymnastics it took to go from where he was to here, and some more to be able to justify any of it at all. 

Before concluding, I’d like to add that I believe that the author, Arthur Koestler, even told us quite a bit about himself with this story.  He is part of that synthesis that is Rubashov.  Accidently running into a little about him while reading about the Trial of the Twenty-One.  He was a devoted Communist. It was this trial complicated by the absurd charges filed against Bukharin that caused him to break with Communism.  He, himself, must have had to do a LOT of soul searching to conclude he came to.

In the story there was a section where decency was talked about Rubashov and a neighboring cell mate (No. 402). In his way Rubashov aka Bukharin/Koestler was fighting over the definition of decency the whole time.  What was real, what was decency? In whose name and in what style of politics does one be decent for in terms of people?  In the end, Rubashov decided that decency was sticking to the party line, capitulating to the party.  He literally sacrificed himself for the party (and in real life, his family –Bukharin).

In who’s name was the barrel raised?  Was it raised for the people? Arlova?  The Central Committee of the Communist Party? The Bolshevik Party?  Stalin?  Maybe it was raised in all their names by that point in history, excepting for the ordinary people who were just trying to survive it all.  The characters represented in the book all played the parts good and bad.  Bukharin probably came closest to realizing just how wrong he was.   Perhaps in reality the barrel was raised for the people, for they were the ones who suffered the consequences of this grand plan to take Russia from a temporary Socialism to Communism knowing there would be suffering and liquidating along the way and justifying it as an end to the means.  I think at the time, the barrel was raised in the name of an insane Stalin.  After all these years, I think, it was raised in the name of the people, and probably should have been literally raised once more for Stalin himself.  There was nothing to admire there.

Personally, I cannot imagine living during these times.  The terror of it, the famine.  It is hard to contemplate how this all even came about.  Humanity can be so cruel. And yet, we know history repeats itself however, dooming and damning it may be. 

“all became quiet,…”  My guess is that the author had passed out at least once in his life.  I personally have passed out and gone code blue.  All does become quiet, except the noise of the ocean waves, which in my guess is probably the noises the body makes as it makes its final movements, and then decides to reboot itself.  There is no time there, no contemplations, no light, and no tunnel.  At least not for me.  I learned that when I am dead, I am dead.  Gone to sleep is such an understatement, most of humanity has no idea how fragile they really are. 

It was the beginning of the end of an Era.  It was most certainly the end of the Bolsheviks as they once were.  It was the end of many people, and their ideals, and dreams. With Stalin near his end, and a population moving on to a different life…. It was all becoming quiet.  It was a process for sure, as all death is.  It is something we do from the moment we are born.   On so many levels it does and will all become quiet.


·         Adrian Pecotic M.A., Psychology Today, Cults of Personality and Where to Find Them.

Please note that if you are interested in reading this book that it is available very inexpensively in many outlets on the internet.  The book, originally published in America in 1941, a copy of which cost me under $5 for the book and shipping.    It is also freely available at the Internet Archive, and the Internet Library (it’s on loan there).    

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The Chinese Exclusion Act

History Timeline  (Assignment for Immigration Class, I’m sure will be edited.  I do not consider myself done.)

May 6 – The Chinese Exclusion Act is the first significant law that restricts immigration into the U.S.

The following artwork (line art?)  is from a Danish immigrant newspaper called the, Bien.  It is written exclusively in Danish.  This photo is from April 21, 1882.  I asked a Danish friend to transcribe the article for me.  He discovered that the text all around the artwork is about a man who went fishing in Lake Winnebago.   My friend said the story is boring!

I was disappointed that there was no text about this photo or about what prompted why it went into the public.  I almost tossed the photo and started looking elsewhere.

And then I realized — This paper was published in San Francisco just before the Chinese Exclusion Act was made into law.  The Chinese people had a huge presence in San Francisco and Northern California.  Even back then there was a China town section in San Francisco.

So, at the very least one can look at the photo and interpret what it is trying to say with history being used to place it in context.  The Chinese started coming over to the US in 1848.  They were allowed in only as laborers.  In 1868, The Burlington Treaty specifically allowed open immigration from China to America.   But, less than 20 years later came the Chinese Exclusion Act.    

When this artwork was published the Chinese were victims of “sustained” violence and other abuses.  Including racism where the “natives” (not Indians) thought themselves quite superior and justified their behavior based on their very poor assumptions about who the Chinese were and how smart they really were.

When I look at this artwork, I am sad to see that the Danish people see the Chinese this way. Everyone in the picture looks male to me. We are primarily people who are laborers is what I surmise.  China Town already looks crowded from the looks of the buildings.  A reflection of how our culture put people in their place in terms of housing.  The same happened to the Jewish in New York. The fact that it was printed at all without some text with it – I think shows how much talk there is about the impending new law. And the attitudes that the new immigrants, the Danish, have picked up on the attitudes of “white” people at the time. 

(Chinese Historical Society)

The Bien, From the Danish Museum Digital Newspaper Vault

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A Must Read…

Pass this one around. I could not have said any of it better. This all hit me when the Republican leadership said that grandparents should think about giving their lives up to give their grandchildren better lives. Really? When did grandparents become a zero value commodity? This is when it suddenly dawned on me that people who scream that they are pro-lifers are probably the worlds biggest hypocrites. As is natural for me, it made me sad. I hate seeing the bad sides of people. I just don’t even want to acknowledge it. In some ways, this is where being a fence sitter actually works. A fence sitter like me can take a centrist point of view— I don’t believe in abortion for myself and I have lived that way. But, I do believe in women having the right to make the decision for themselves. I do not believe in forcing my personal choice on others. I do believe the way we treat immigrants and migrants is wholly indefensible. I do believe we need some more common sense gun control (Clyde and I disagree on this point, what I see as common sense, he sees as government control). I can’t ignore the loss of lives every time a (Usually WHITE) young man shoots up a school yard, theater, or some other group gathering. It’s time we treat our mentally ill humanely, and teach our sons that they are not privileged over another person regardless of skin color or sex. It’s time to put bullying in its place –away, 1000% NOT tolerated. Done with this particular rant.

So, You Never Really Were “Pro-Life,” Were You? By: JOHN PAVLOVITZ




“I’m sorry folks, but I a can’t remember what I’m doing now…forget about yesterday!”

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Guarding the Golden Door by Roger Daniels

An essay I wrote today about a book, Guarding the Golden Door by Roger Daniels,  we are reading for a history class at OSU called Immigration to America from 1880. I wasn’t going to post it here, but I mention a little bit about Douglas County in it. If you would like to know more about where the Chinese worked in Douglas County I can tell you about the landmarks that are out on Cow Creek out past Riddle and before you get to Glendale. China Ditch is mentioned and that’s out North Myrtle Creek. I know a tiny bit about China Sam who lived in Roseburg. And I love to research this stuff!! Hope you enjoy!

There is an image at the link below.  Off white people are holding a sign saying that, “Immigrants make America Great”.   Truth is without Immigrants there would be no America at all.  They are what made and continue to make America great!  And yet, they are perceived to this day as secondary citizens, not much more in the hierarchy than legalized slavery.    We owe immigrants a debt of thanks, for they take the ‘dirty jobs’ that most of us snub our noses at.  Thank an immigrant for being willing to work in unsafe, unsanitary environments getting a sub standard wage doing the things we would not lower ourselves to do.  Thank them and be grateful. 



In chapter 1 of Roger Daniels book, “Guarding the Golden Door” gives us an introduction to a subject that he feels is vastly under studied [pg. 6], Immigration Policy in America. He makes is quite clear from the very first sentences of the chapter that American Immigration policy is often “…. conceived in ignorance, …falsely presented to the public, and had consequences never undreamt about by its creators.” The author goes on to introduce the idea of nativism and how the policies themselves along with attitudes of Americans have been non-consistent, except perhaps in terms of racism, along with other unkind treatment given to immigrants who do not live up to an American’s view of what “white” in America is. [pg. 7] He starts his book and his argument with the 1882 Chinese Exclusion Act by saying that pointing out that this Act be, “…a nodal point in the history of American Immigration Policy.” By using the term “nodal point” the author points out that this 1882 policy was a focus point, a very good example of Immigration policy along with political, social, and cultural drama of an American bipolar response to immigration and immigrants. Or as he puts it on page 6 where he introduces the idea of one theme in the book, the “dualistic attitude that most Americans have developed towards immigration and immigrants, on the one hand reveling in the nation’s immigrant past and on the other rejecting much of its immigrant present.”

 This theme he writes about the dualistic nature of American attitude is voiced in modern America. Growing up in California one of the most diverse populations in the country in terms of immigrants I often heard Mexican Americans talked about in despicable terms growing up. “They need to go back where they came from.” As if they were not here before the rest of us. And if the source produce at the grocery store dried up and the products were no longer available, most of the family members who voiced such a horrible attitude would have been begging for those underpaid agricultural workers to come back. The pay for picking produce is below what most American’s consider necessary to keep up their standard of living.

Yet, those same family members – were proud to be Scotch, Irish, Welsh, English, Dutch, German, and Danish. Not of a one of those named ethnicities originate in North America. Perhaps it was we, who should have gone back to where we belonged. Daniels has this “attitude” of the American people completely right. Go to another place in the country, as I have, and you will hear of another group of people who is being abused in the very exact same way. In the Midwest, at least with some, the disrespect was for the black population. Yet, if we are white, and have long roots on this continent our very own ancestors probably had something to do with bringing some of their ancestors here. It is not like they came over on a cruise ship looking for Fantasy Island. So, I can verify with my own examples of that “dualistic attitude.” Therefore, I feel he is completely right. American have in general wanted the cake and to eat it too!

IF those two examples are not enough, listen to Rush Limbaugh or Glenn Beck on their radio programs.

Mr. Daniels points out Founding Fathers, Thomas Jefferson and George Washington knew that immigration was key to growing our nation. [pg. 6, & 7] It was considered necessary. George Washington even voiced our countries eagerness to have immigrants come to America to live. Yet, John Adams another Founding Father, led an administration that put into place the Alien Sedition Acts in the 1790s. Mr. Daniels points out that this was anti-immigration policy that aimed to keep people out of the country who might vote Jeffersonian rather than for the Federalists. Not only were American’s attitude dualistic but from the beginning of our country we celebrated and invited in the immigrants with one face and cursed them and worked to keep them out with the other.

The author then seqways back to the Chinese Exclusion Act. The author points out that until the Chinese Exclusion law immigration law was “minimal” and that to be naturalized a person need only be a “free white person”, while qualifying that further, the truth was that a person needed to be white. It was the fact that these prior laws were minimal that made the Chinese Exclusion law such a focal point. At this juncture in history America had become blatantly racist in terms of Asians and who they were. Asians were a people that needed to be controlled. We would gladly take advantage of their very cheap labor but as a country we were also very happy to tell them to, “go back to where they belong.”

Here in Oregon, and specifically in Douglas County where I live, I could take you to several spots where the Chinese were instrumental in laying down railroad track through this mountainous landscape. The work was dangerous, and it was hard. Their labor was also used on other projects around here, one of the bigger projects is today called, “China Ditch”. It is way out of the way, in the “boonies” one might say. But, the scar on the mountain side still shows the mark of the labor that these men put in to get water from one side of the mountain to the other so that men of means could take gold from the Umpqua Basin and lift up their standard of living. The West probably might not have been “won” had it not been for hard working Chinese and the white men who were so willing to exploit them.

Chapter 1 is an introduction to several ideas: Nativism, America’s consistent two faced attitude towards immigrants that includes the racism along with the ability to take advantage of another people and the inconsistent way in which America immigration policies have been set forth over the years.

Side note:  In fifth grade It think it was, I had to do a report.  I don’t remember just what the report could be about.  I only remember that I settled on researching and reporting on the Chinese and their labors on the California railroads.  It amazes me how much I am using knowledge gleaned all those years ago today.  I remember from way back then that the treatment of Asians in America was unforgivable.    Today American’s enjoy a life that was built upon the backs of others that our ancestors really wanted nothing to do with, and thought were below “their dignity.”  With their assumptions of just who these “others” were,  American’s used their notions to justify looking down on others and abusing them in anyway they saw fit.  I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again (and again, and again)—  American’s have a pitifully poor history when it comes to the treatment of anyone deemed not white, and that was the majority of the rest of the world, including a lot of “white” people who were early on defined as other than white. It mattered not — if you were white or black if you were Jewish, Catholic, German, or Asian. All were deemed to be 2nd class citizens, all were seen as nothing more than labor.  Most were forced into a life of misery barely above the life of slavery.  We American’s have very little from our past to be truly proud of.  We are a very arrogant people.

IF you think me wrong, look at what the attitudes of our forbearers and how they affect today’s history in the making.  Trump’s nativists attitudes could not be more blatant.  Nor can his racism.  He is a man who soaked up his parents attitudes like a sponge, and lives the attitude to this day.  Present example with him that comes to mind is him hiring illegal immigrants for low wages at his high prices exclusive clubs, and then turning around and politicalizing the fact that they are here at all, and accusing them all of being criminals, or secondary citizens.  He has made it clear that if you don’t have something to offer America then you are not welcome here.  I’d love to point out to him that when those people come here to labor in our strawberry and artichoke fields, when they pick our grapes, and our walnuts, as they pack our melons in the fields — they are giving us something.  They are giving us their blood, and sweat, their labor and their youth,  their living and often their very lives.  

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Some good news!

Good news for me! The cardiologists office was aware that insurance was refusing to cover my medications.  Because my old doctor had retired, no one in the office knew why.  I told them what the old cardiologist had told me.  The nurse on the other side of the phone answer to my answer was, “well they are not nice!”  LOL– yea, well, that’s life!  Or as I said when I was a kid, “that’s how the ball bounces…” 

Either way, the doctors office has given 2 weeks worth of samples to hopefully last until they can get insurance to pay for the medication.  I guess, we will see.  It could be we’ll find out that taking the really good new medication is just putting off the inevitable for awhile–that I’ll still end up on the 2nd best medicine.  But, I guess, I’ll wait the two weeks and see what happens… right at the moment, I have nothing to loose.  

So, it will take a few days for me to get my strength back.  I had reached the point where I really couldn’t even bring in an armful of groceries from the car.  So, while I am recouping,  I will concentrate on my classes.  

My mother, P. L. Coop Rowe –I don’t claim the Doyal part.

I have discovered that My Heritage is letting people use their colorizer software for free, right from their homepage.  You upload a black and white photo, and seconds later, literally,
they show you a colored photo.  The software is not perfect, occasionally it doesn’t get a hand or an ear.  Then the coloring is so poor the that person looks as if they have a dead hand or ear.  But, all in all, I can’t complain.  This same job done by hand using photoshop would have taken me hours!!  Give it a try, while you can!   The photo here is a colorized b&w photo.  Looks good to me!

Take care!! Stay home, and stay safe!! Peg

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To My Readers…

Something peaceful to contemplate while visiting. Thank you for coming by. This photo is available for reprints — inquire within. Copyright 2018, Peggy Ann Rowe – Snyder

Not that there are many of you.  But, wanted to let you know that I will slow down in posting a.) because a new quarter has started but mostly, b.) I have run out of the medicines that keep me from suffering from the symptoms of heart failure.  Insurance does not pay for the medications.  Here in America to buy the name brand which is the only form available costs $560 a month.  If we want to live in a tent, then we could afford the medication.    I was sending off to Canada and getting a generic from them for $70 a month.  But now, with this corona virus thing, they are not even acknowledging my order for a refill.  It has been days.  I’m on half a dosage now to make the medications last longer.  I’ll be out this week.  

Without the medications, and the symptoms have already started, I can’t walk up a small incline.  I can not push a vacuum cleaner.  I can not mow my grass.  I can not do much of anything.   It is debatable in my mind if I can even keep going to school.  We’ll see how it goes.   But, yea, I’ve believed in Universal Health care/insurance since I was 16 and heard Teddy Kennedy talk about it on the local radio.  I really think this country needs it more now considering this virus going around.  If I end up dead from this, and I doubt I will, but if, the message would be to keep pushing some form of universal health care.  We are human, we all get sick, and it is only humane to be sure that everyone it taken care of.  Maybe that’s mom in me, but that is how I feel. 

I have called the cardiologist, and asked for whatever medications are 2nd best.  My normal cardiologist got pneumonia and had to retire early.  So, I have a new unnamed doctor who will be in on Monday and I hope help.   I really have no clue how heart failure was treated before this new medication came along, so I do not know what to expect.  That is probably part of my issue.

And no, I do not have true heart failure, but what I do have gives me symptoms of it, and it is 1000% debilitating.  Frightening to put it lightly.  It still has the ability to kill be because it causes my heart to be weakened.  Because of the damage done by the onset of the disease my heart is already weakened, and that is why I feel symptoms already.  So, I’ll be taking more naps, doing a lot less work, sitting around more… thinking more cause I can’t move around much.  I pray I don’t get the virus-if I do it will kill me.  

Also I know from previous experience that this not only takes a physical toll.  It affects the mind as well.  I got to feeling so badly that I made it through my youngest’s graduation barely, and then I drove off intending to end my life in some obscure place. What saved my life was the fact that the car broke down.  I called my hero of a husband and the man came running.  There is no doubt that no matter how stupid I can be, that man loves me with all this heart.  I cried that whole night long….  and I knew something wasn’t right, but I had not yet realized it was a serious health issue.  The condition was just beginning to present itself, sort of.   So, there are actually many layers to this condition to watch out for.  Enough that it has slowed me down, and affected my physical and mental health before.  So, I know what the potential is here.  

In the meantime, Take care, and be safe.   Take this virus seriously as you would any other serious disease.   Peg


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Spanish Franciscans, French Jesuits, & White Slave Holders

Note: Spring 2020 quarter has started.  We were asked to answer a question relating to this weeks reading in our United States and Religion class.  My one or two paragraph answer turned into an imperfect essay.  🙂   But, I got a really good grade on it, and the Professor commented that it was very well thought out.  She did not say if I was right or wrong.  But, here it is.  

Which group do you think was most successful in producing religious converts: Spanish Franciscans, French Jesuits, or white slave owners? Why?

In a way, I’d like to see religion taken out of the equation completely.  Can I say, let’s just look at the way the Natives and Slaves were treated.  Let me just say ahead that part of this information is actually from a book I read probably six months ago called Siege and Survival.  It is about the what the Menominee people went through from before white people showed up.  The white people being Jesuit priests.   So much of my knowledge base about the French Jesuits probably come from that and the research I did after reading it because it piqued my interest in the subject. 

I know that religion is the subject of this class, and I realize that religion could never be totally removed from the situation because religion and the corresponding beliefs of each sect have a lot to do with how the Natives and Slaves were treated. 

Lets just look at how each sect or group of people treated the Natives or slaves –

Slavery was justified by the idea of white supremacy.  It was motivated by financial greed of white people who considered themselves as superior to the Slaves &  Natives.  Assumptions were made that the African peoples had no spirituality at all.  In those days, a lot of Christianity was based on the hell and brimstone theory, which justified (I think) the idea that one could treat another in anyway they choose.  Because  they viewed the slaves as beneath them, they saw their treatment as appropriate.  The outcome was too justify use of violence to deliver whatever it was that the superiors wanted.  The “whatever” being labor, or fruits of labor, or being sure that a people took on the Christian mantle so that both the slave and the master could be saved by Jesus/God. The violence includes but it not limited to whipping, beating, emotional and mental control techniques, rape, etc.   We read just a little about that in the Joyner article.   How many people can you convert when 20% of those you are trying to convert already have their own idea of religion (the Muslims), and/or some other form of spiritualism?  Take that number and subtract any number of those who were beaten, whipped, or raped.  I have no clue how many were converted, but it seems logical to me that the numbers might be somewhat in error considering the slave had to answer that particular question (not that it was ever asked) in the what that the master saw fit.

I was born and raised in the San Francisco Bay Area.  I grew up, probably, no further than five miles from Mission San Jose.  I was across the bay from Mission Dolores.  I was down the freeway from Mission Solano.  Its not that I am any expert, but it was part of my education as a kid to learn about the Mission system.  

The Franciscans were in the Western part of North America for at least two reasons:  to convert the natives and to help establish Spanish control over the area as a colony.  Of course, the Spaniards expected to make some sort of monetary gain from the area.  Unfortunately, I believe that money has everything to do with how people are treated to this day. 

It is a matter of fact, that the Spanish Franciscans, are also a branch of the Catholic faith and so have in its background some or most of the same foundational spiritual guidance as the French Jesuits.  But, unlike the French Jesuits they had no problems with resorting to violence to get the labor they wanted out of the poor people they were forcing (excuse me, converting to) their religion on.  I was taught as a kid, that the Franciscans were very violent toward the Natives.  I learned the term paternalist in my recent past, and this is how the Franciscans viewed the Natives.  They felt they had the obligation to over see what the Natives did and correct them and to convert them.  So, the Indians were their primary source of labor so far as I remember.  The mission system, and the Franciscans themselves got rich from exploiting that labor.  The Natives were basically treated as slaves to be converted to Christianity.  It is debatable that the Franciscans  ever treated the Natives any better than those master’s treated their slaves who were laboring in the South. 

So, while there is no shortage of Catholics in America (and I am not anti-Catholic) the same logic applies to my thoughts about Franciscans as the logic I used above with the Master/Slave relationships. It was the assumed the Natives had no religion and had to be taught or converted.  How many were going to genuinely convert if they are being misused and abused?  Beating a person into submission as it concerns religion is nothing short of brainwashing.  Can a brainwashed person truly convert?  They can believe they have, the converter can believe they have, but deep down inside, are they not the person they always were?

I get the idea, and I might be wrong, that the French Jesuits were in North America purely to convert the Native population.  So, this takes out money as any sort of justification or motivation for the treatment of peoples.  One good thing about the Jesuit sect is that they believed in trying to learn and understand the language of the people they were trying to convert.  They believed that their religion could be worked with, within the Native people’s culture.   Jesuits clearly felt paternalistically toward the Natives, we see that when reading “Black Robe.”   But, the paternalism lead to a more patient and understanding of the Natives.  So, at least at first, and in theory, labor was not necessarily forced upon the Natives.  It was bargained for.   In exchange for labor the Natives were offered food, clothing, and protection.  So, at least outwardly, there was not the coercion that the others used against their underling slave or Native.  This is not to say that there wasn’t manipulation used, but there was not nearly as much violence involved. One could call the bartering that was done bribery, and I would not argue.  But the bottom line is that the Natives in the Jesuits territory may have had their lives less discombobulated by the presence of the them.

So, therefore, who in my mind, who was most successful in producing converts?  The definition of success is subjective in this case.  Are we to qualify that with pure numbers?  If that were the case, then probably the masters in the South would win.  Plainly, slave populations were not decimated by the diseases of the white men.  But, in terms of pure conversion not won by violence, where the Native or slave was truly converted?  I bet; the Jesuits were the most successful. 

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